Friday, September 30, 2005

so hurt that it can blew me away
away from here...
away from where i belong
i juz wanna achieve eternality
where there is no pain

every night i m awake.
becuz of all those noises in my head
unable to shake it off.


life has it all..
juz live with it
believe in it..
let fate do the rest

arrgh!!!

my mind is twirling in a whirlpool.
cant stop..
i need sth to stop it..
juz sth..
but what is it...?

and yes.
i found it..
the thing lying by my side..
the shiny blade make me wanna take it.
but i cant
the whirlpool is getting bigger.
i need it!
right now right away!!
i reach out...
and yes!
i grab it..
looking at its beautiful shiny blade and the handle
make me wanna stab that painful thing inside me

something hold me up again.
its those thoughts and noises in my head..
stop it! stop it!
the horrible laughter, the bruises, the pain..
arrghh! stop it!
i must do it now!

i held it high in the air...
again the blade became visible and shiny in mid air...
this is it..
this is the time....
and finally.....
the blade was filled with blood once again..

so bloody..the pain is gone.
no longer have those thoughts in my head.
i m free at last...............

endin in bitterness & blood
princess's dream
at 4:22 PM